What has been your greatest struggle in your acting career?
I think the greatest struggle probably was after the show ended because I was on One Life for a long time and I was very used to consistent work, 10 years of it. Although in a normal actor’s career, there is down time, and I wasn’t use to having down time, but it was actually such a blessing in disguise, because during that down time, I started discovering other things about myself. That was when I started writing, producing, and also getting into a lot more of the tech stuff; I’m very techy and very into that. I got super into that and taking classes and enjoying it. It is great because it is like oh my gosh there is this whole other side of me! Who knew, because acting was such a primary focus and still is but now I feel more well-rounded, more human.
I know you have done both television and films, are there distinct differences when working on either?
In film, things are most of the time very still because everything is so close and that camera sees everything. I’m very expressive so even the slightest [quirk] all over my face would be just insane on film. Where as in certain TV, especially on soap operas, there are a lot more medium or wider shots... but most of the time it is farther away and you can be more expressive. I actually prefer the film side of it on that end, because I like having really still moments. I think expressing things slightly with your eyes or the slightest mannerisms, you (can) show what a character is going through, something without having to tell that they are going through something. I feel like as humans we do that a lot because we have micro-expressions and we try not to give it away, but we do, especially in the soap world. Film, TV, and Soaps are all very different...they are great, I love them all.
You seem so bubbly and sweet in interviews; how does this compare to the characters you play?
Well, most of my characters are not bubbly and sweet. Natalie was very young when she came about on the show. She was kind of petulant and she was tough, but more from a non- growing place. She was very childish, in certain aspects, but she grew up... she kept some of her toughness and became vulnerable to care about others a little bit more than just herself. I guess in that way I would compare. What I envied about her is that she had the ability to tell people like it is, no matter what, and that is something that is very uncomfortable for me. Don’t get me wrong, if you get me pissed off, I can say anything. The same with Serena, I feel like Serena was kind of the same. She just didn’t really give a sh*t what people thought and I’m like, oh, I want that! other than that, those characters had a lot of me in them, and I learned from them.
What are new things you have learned from producing a show as opposed to just acting in a show?
Oh wow, actually it is kind of cool to be on the other side and see what goes into it... On the producing side thinking about money, you’re thinking about time, you’re thinking about how this money and time cooperate with each other because time costs money...you are looking for not just the best acting jobs but you are looking for the best technical things. You are looking through all those aspects of it and you have to just take what you have and make it the best thing...I think that is probably one of the biggest differences between producing and (acting) is that it is easier to see the larger picture when you're producing... whereas actors, we tend to focus on us, our own character and the small stuff; the small section, but it is a whole production.